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Janine’s Story of Hope and Healing

Earlier this year Janine suffered a monumental loss when her fiancé passed away 2 months before their wedding day.  To deal with her grief she decided to create a memorial photo-shoot.  The images and video story we created together were an incredibly cathartic and emotional experience for us both.  The experience allowed Janine to rediscover her femininity and open her eyes once more to the beauty of the world.

My name is Matt Adcock and this is the first time I’ve been inspired to do anything like this in my 10+ year career as a destination wedding photographer.  After I heard Janine’s story, I really wanted to do what I could to create a magical adventure for her.  She told me that she felt a strong connection with the element of water, for its cleansing and purifying qualities and the sense of freedom she felt while swimming.  I knew that the natural aquatic wonders of the Riviera Maya would offer great comfort and would be the perfect vehicle for her healing process.

I began to develop a plan, one that would involve a symbolic and ceremonial liberation from grief.  The shoot was designed to have several points that would serve as memory markers for her, the balloon release and the falling into the cenote both representing elements of letting go of the past and opening herself to the future.

This is by far the most emotional I have ever been while working on a project.  I was brought to tears when I started to bring the story to life in the editing room.  I am humbled to have been able to meet and work with Janine and am inspired by her words and her courage in sharing her message of hope.  I would like to thank Zuko and our friends at AM Resorts and Dreams Tulum for helping us bring this idea to life.

I laughed and cried with Janine.  Her spirit and energy are contagious and I really hope her story touches someone else going through a tough time. Janine had the courage to express herself in a way others can’t even imagine.

After the shoot, we interviewed Janine.  She shared these thoughts with us:

When I finally decided that I wanted to keep my wedding dress and not sell it because of what it means to me, I started to Google “photography” and “underwater bride”.  Del Sol Photography came up more than once so I finally looked at their website.  I was in awe of their work so I said to myself, “What are you going to lose?  Just go for it.  So I filled out the “contact us” part of their website and they got back to me in 24 hours.

My expectation was to find a certain closure and to have a photo shoot of my dress in a different way that not your average bride would even think of doing.  I wanted to be free and I wanted to do something different.

The day of the shoot I woke up at Dreams Tulum very excited, but I was also very nervous.  My dress was huge and I didn’t know what to expect while I was in the water.  I had no idea what a cenote was.  But I was also curious to see what Matt had in store for me.  He ran a bunch of ideas past me and so I was eager to find out how the day was going to go.

This day was very emotional.  At the end of the day I felt so accomplished and I felt more alive than I have ever felt since May 1st.  I really felt that Johnny was smiling down at me and finally giving me closure that I can live my life in a positive way, but never forgetting why I was here.  I want to move on and explore the world.  I want to meet people who I can share that with.  After the shoot I felt like all this was possible.

If I could reach out to anyone suffering from a loss, I would tell them this. Listen to YOUR heart! You are the most important person and only YOU can help yourself.  What I experienced isn’t for everyone but I do want people to know that you are not alone in all this, if you have family that ask if they can help SAY YES! You are grieving and you need this time to really think about what you are going to do next.  You have the right to cry and you have the right to be alone  (but not too much alone)  If you are close to family or friends lean on them.  Also, try something new! When I did this photo shoot I had the best time I actually had fun for the 1st time in 3 month since Johnny passed away.  Reach out for help and never apologize for your actions because you are strong and you will get through this!

We thank you all for taking the time to share in Janine’s experience and we send everyone wishes of healing, hope and joy. Please share this story with anyone who may be in need of light and love.

Principal Photographer + Video + Text by: Matt
Assistant Photographer Debora
Special thanks to Sara Tamargo for her Makeup
Please contact us if you are interested in one of our Tribute Sessions.

 

 

Comments

  1. Susan Somer Beach September 10, 2014 at 10:03 am

    JP is my cousin. Janine is beautiful, and I thank her for sharing her story. I can’t imagine the heartache she feels, we all loved John. Thank you for doing this for Janine and sharing her story. I am in tears watching. I love them both.

    • Matt Adcock September 10, 2014 at 11:21 am

      Hola Susan. It was my pleasure to do this for her… I really experienced so many feelings WITH her and really it wasnt a project I was confident I could do… I just wanted to help and feel lucky to know such amazing people to help me put it all together. Thanks for commenting.

  2. Florbela September 10, 2014 at 11:55 am

    I’ve know Janie, and her family for sometime- mother, sister, cousins and grandparents. Although I did not really know Johnny I recently got the prelivage to meeting him, just before he passed. I am happy to say I got to shake his hand. I have been holding her story close to my heart, and praying for her, as its such a tragic love story. These photos have brought me to tears, in both happiness + sadness. Matt Adcock, the photographer did an AMAZING work caputuring the beauty and the haunting story. I love that there were underwater photos – that have this magical enchanted feeling/mood. I am super glad Janie gave herself a gift of capturing a moment in her life inorder to release and let go. As a photographer myself, I just wanted to thank Matt for taking on the challenge and creating such beauty for her and Johnny, you and your team did a great job. much love to you all, florbela

    • Matt Adcock September 10, 2014 at 12:41 pm

      Hi Florbela, thank you for taking time to write and share with us and for your kind comments about me and my work. I am surrounding myself daily with such amazing people who inspire me, challenge me, question me and always collaborate with me to go the extra mile in everything we do. I must admit, I was a bit uncertain as to what I could do for Janine seeing how much she had gone through. Meeting her and talking with her through this whole process has opened many new doors (professionally and personally) as I was able to connect in a unique way with Janine and this message of hope…. Its really healing for me to be part of this.

  3. John K September 10, 2014 at 12:30 pm

    I cant seem to find a link to the video anywhere?

  4. Corby O September 10, 2014 at 1:14 pm

    I ran across this story while researching my trip to Cancun. I am a social worker and work with individuals dealing with grief. This was an amazing story! The photography and video captured Janine beautifully! They captured her spirit, strength and grace. I am going to suggest to some of my clients to watch the video.

    I can’t help but wonder how JP passed? If I could tell Janine I would let her know she is AMAZING!
    Corby

    • Matt Adcock September 10, 2014 at 7:24 pm

      Hi Corby, thank you for taking time to comment and it would be a huge honor if you shared with some of your clients going through some tough times. I am sure Janine would be happy to know if this helped someone. She has been awesome through this whole process and I’m sure she would send out a BIG hug for your kind thoughts.

  5. Lucia white September 11, 2014 at 1:26 am

    Janine is my beautiful daughter ! I am so proud of her ! I love you sooooooo much Janine !
    Thank you Matt for this amazing experience you gave Janine ! I have watched the video at least 12 times today and I have sobbed every time! Sad,happiness,and felt the healing as I watched ! As a mother the pain for my daughter goes deep and the instinct is always want to protect her as she will always be my little girl! My job is complete as a mother when I watch and see a most beautiful courageous women that Janine has become ! I KNOW that she will soar to even bigger and higher heights !

    • Matt Adcock September 11, 2014 at 11:43 am

      HI Lucia, its an honor to get this kind of comment / compliment from MOM!!!! I briefly met you a few weeks ago over a skype chat before we publicly released the video, so at least I have a face with your comment to remember. This experience was so incredible for me!!! Janine gave me powers to dream with her and as an artist, I desperately needed that. Thanks again for your inspirational words. Telling her story was a complete pleasure! Hope to see you in Mexico soon!

  6. Camille Balli September 11, 2014 at 12:41 pm

    Matt,

    I’ve known you for a long time and this is one of the most beautiful stories ever. It made me laugh and cry. I knew in my heart when I met you many years ago that you would make a difference in this world and you blew me away with this one. You and Sol are world class and I am so honored to know you all. Thank you to Janine for opening her heart and soul with so many people. We can all see how special this was and hope that this lifted her grief and spirit. Thanks, Camille Balli / Atlanta GA

    • Janine September 11, 2014 at 7:50 pm

      Hi Camille
      Thank you so much for taking the time to watch the video and then comment here. Reading all the responses really helps me and I am glad that I found Matt and Del Sol. They did an amazing job.
      All I want people to see is that there is a life to be lived how precious relationships are.

      Thank you again! God bless you

    • Matt Adcock September 14, 2014 at 8:03 pm

      Hi Camille…. WOW, thank you for the response. I remember your family so well and am so thankful you are still here today in my life! This project has filled my heart with so much joy!!!!! Thank you for your support!

  7. Mindy Lazecki September 11, 2014 at 5:47 pm

    My husband and I got married June 12th in Playa Mujeres, just a couple weeks ago on Aug 27th he died in a motorcycle accident back home in Puerto Vallarta. I am still grieving and have cried every day. Reading her story has helped me find a little peace in her strength to move forward like this. Much love

    • Matt Adcock September 14, 2014 at 7:49 pm

      Mindy, I connected with you over email…. I just wanted to say again I am so sorry for your loss and happy you found some peace here with this project. Te mando gran abrazos senorita.

  8. wedding videographer VILLARANVIDEO September 11, 2014 at 5:51 pm

    OMG! sorry loss! :( Beautiful shots in the sea

  9. Kay Walten September 12, 2014 at 9:44 am

    What an inspirational story! Janine you are amazing. Hugs to you in your healing and your courage!

  10. Sam September 12, 2014 at 6:40 pm

    My heart breaks for Janine. What a wonderful tribute to her fiancee. Absolutely stunning photos! She is beautiful – outside and in!

  11. Karen Deville September 12, 2014 at 6:41 pm

    This is the most beautiful story and video I have ever seen. She is an amazing young woman! The pictures are truly amazing and an inspiration. Thank you so much for sharing this.

  12. Kari September 12, 2014 at 8:56 pm

    What a stunningly beautiful woman. The emotions she displays, which are across the board, are just powerful. Wow.

  13. Sea September 12, 2014 at 9:50 pm

    I am in tears. This is a such a beauty-filled story of finding center after unimaginable loss. I don’t know Janine..Or John…but I do now. Prayers, love and light. And just so you know Janine…I lost an old boyfriend (the one I should have married) in a tragic accident just as we were starting to make or way back to eachother. It’s been 7 years now…and he’s never left me…he’s been here every day. Johnny is there for you too. And always will be. Love IS eternal.

  14. christine September 12, 2014 at 11:11 pm

    What a beautiful story of love and what a brave bride.Gorgeous pictures.

  15. sophie September 13, 2014 at 7:57 am

    this was so lovely a very nice story to read on this rainy day. such courage!

  16. Sonya September 13, 2014 at 9:49 am

    Beautiful!!

  17. Kerrie September 13, 2014 at 10:48 am

    I stumbled across these photos by pure chance. I also lost my fiance suddenly and unexpectedly earlier this year. I just want to say how beautiful and inspiring I have found Janine’s story and photos to be. Thank you for contributing to my healing, and may you continue to find peace and healing on your journey.

  18. Alexandra September 13, 2014 at 6:33 pm

    The photograph in the river with the veil spread out reminds me of the Delaroche painting “The Young Martyr,” but it is also its opposite. Instead of representing an end, this photo captures a rebirth and new beginning. Stunning work, and my love and best wishes to Janine.

  19. Jennifer September 13, 2014 at 9:07 pm

    I’ve always been a huge fan of your work. This is just exceptional. You are amazing!

  20. Mikki September 14, 2014 at 10:46 pm

    I have a page that is based on photography and I would love it if I could feature your story on it. :) Thank you

  21. Nárea September 14, 2014 at 11:21 pm

    Lindo ensaio,mais linda ainda a atitude dela diante de uma perca! <3

  22. Deb September 15, 2014 at 12:50 am

    These pictures are truly amazing. They are absolutely beautiful. Janine, I admire you for doing what you did to free yourself. Your fiance would be proud of you. Be proud of yourself. Del Sol Photography, you are extremely talented photographers. These are works of art for sure. Continue.

  23. Stephanie Overstreet September 15, 2014 at 4:54 am

    What a beautiful way for Janine to honor her fiance. She seems to be a beautiful person, full of so much life and lots of love to give. I wish her comfort, and happiness, and to always cherish the great memories with her fiance.

    As a fellow photographer, I so appreciate what you’ve done for her. It’s a great job to be able to do something like this for someone, and you’ve done a fantastic job.

  24. Darci September 15, 2014 at 12:24 pm

    These pictures are amazing and breath taking! Each picture captures the true essence of the emotions felt during grief. When I look at them, I can feel the emotions myself. From the second she is plunging in the water, it is an encapsulating feeling like your drowning in hopelessness and deepest, darkest, despair, to the moment when you capture her at peace, looking up, as if her Johnny was giving her the reassurance and comfort that she needs to move on in life. Her courage to move on and look for the next journey in her life is shown through the picture where she is in the water and it looks like she is floating to the top, it is almost like she is climbing and reaching back to the top for a new start, a breath of fresh air. Her courage is a bright spot for me.

  25. Diane September 15, 2014 at 2:54 pm

    What a beautiful outcome to such a sad sad event in your life. Making something positive out of this by facing your profound sorrow, and honouring your precious fiance, I was moved to tears. You have a beautiful soul Janine, and Matt, how lucky is Janine to have met someone like you who joined her on her journey, finding closure. God bless you all.

    RIP John.

  26. Wendi September 15, 2014 at 3:31 pm

    What a truly inspiring story – I too lost the love of my life tragically on 1/31/14. I was the only survivor of a 2 car head on collision, he died in my arms – Andy saved my life. This gets me thinking of ways to honor our love. I don’t think I could put on my wedding dress however. Thank you. Wendi

  27. Nicole September 15, 2014 at 4:31 pm

    Janine,
    I’m sorry for your loss. I have to tell you how beautiful your pictures are and how deep the symbolism is…running to be cleansed; baptizing; reborn new. I love it! Matt did a great job and so did you. I hope nothing but the best for you!

  28. Natasha September 15, 2014 at 5:36 pm

    I just got married where your shoot was taken, and I cried knowing how fortunate I am. I thought how beautiful you looked in your dress and also thinking of your sadness. I can’t imagine. I really appreciate you opening my eyes today as I watch your beautiful shoot. It took me back 10 days ago to Our very special day. Thank you for sharing and I’ll always think of you Janine and the message you sent out to today. I’ll remember you always. I shared it with my Husband as well. He feels the same way I do. Lots of love,hugz, and healing. Sincerely Natasha from California

  29. Christina September 15, 2014 at 7:23 pm

    What absolutely beautiful photos. Stunning. I am so sorry for your loss Janine; that you had to go through such heartbreak. I am thrilled, however, that you will have these wonderful photos to remember your beloved by for the rest of your life. I pray this experience has helped spark a new light in your life and that you will go on to live happily. God Bless you.

  30. Kathleen September 15, 2014 at 9:59 pm

    Absolutely breathtaking and beautiful. Heal and love again you beautiful soul…

  31. Jason September 16, 2014 at 12:07 am

    I know very little about photography, but those are the most beautiful pictures I have ever seen. Your amazing talent is a perfect fit for Janine’s radiance. God bless you all.

  32. Marbellys September 16, 2014 at 4:53 am

    Thank you very much, so show me with your story, full of courage, courage. I think we passed by circumstances to learn and advance, the loss is a painful subject, we lose everything that hurts us, for example, waste time with the wrong people, we lose the train does not arrive on time, we lose the jobs that not have the profile, we lose time, not to be with my daughter Vanessa, because I’m looking for work and live in another country Spain, I want to me very soon, she’s with her ​​father in Venezuela, and we almost 2 years apart … i want to be more financially stable and offer a better education. and safety.

    A fantastic fofotografica section, filled with great tenderness and inner healing sample, is that it is a job that is priceless, to have wonderful people on your side and you are supporting manon in your grief.

    You get out of me a big hug, you’re a brave woman !!!

    You are special to God, so you’re especially touched by, to grow to another level.

    A kiss and blessings from our Lord for you.

    Thank you very much for your story and photograph key piece I have important too.

    Blessings !!!

  33. Feryal nino September 16, 2014 at 5:50 am

    Hello . You are so beautiful everything in life for reasons God will heal and hear ur crying out believe in him his ur comfort he loves you so much . You are strong & beautiful woman the love I saw in ur video really says everything about u GOD BLESS YOU .

  34. Miranda September 16, 2014 at 6:48 am

    Hi Janine,
    Hi Matt,

    I’m from Belgium, and even here, this sad love story reached the newsletters. It made me cry,because this is really touching heart and soul.
    To Janine: I admire your strong will and ability to cope with this big emotional loss the way You do. I think You are truly inspirational to other persons who lose a loved one.
    To Matt: I think you did a wonderfull job and You just made it possible for Janine, to, even for a little bit, change this sad story into a beautifull moment that will warms her heart, and makes her smile, whenever she looks at your pictures. sad story, beautiful project… (sorry for my “broken” english)
    Miranda

  35. anne September 16, 2014 at 7:42 am

    This is absolutely gorgeous. Water does fee so freeing.
    What a beautiful gift to give her, and what an amazing strong woman.

  36. Domnic Santiago September 16, 2014 at 8:13 am

    I think of myself as a very rugged person, who has seen it all and is not moved my anything. Looking at these photos and the story behind it, there a drop of tear in my eyes. Just wanted to thank you for bringing humanity out in me…:)

    Dom

  37. Ingrid September 16, 2014 at 8:57 am

    Touching story. But after over 30 years of marriage not so easy to cope with.

  38. Marian Bouwman (from The Netherlands) September 16, 2014 at 1:20 pm

    First of all, my condolences for the lost of your fiance.
    I think you are a beautiful woman and the pictures are fantástic! I am so glad for you, that you found someone who made this possible for you .
    I wish you all the strenght and courrage to get trough this.
    God bless you!
    With love,
    Marian Bouwman

  39. tara k September 16, 2014 at 2:01 pm

    this is inspiring and my heart felt her pain, loss and newfound happiness this photoshoot brought to her.

  40. Denise September 16, 2014 at 3:40 pm

    OMG! Absolutely beautiful!! the pictures have helped me with my grief as well. I lost my significant other in March’14 and I feel her pain. Grieving is a slow journey. We all have to be strong for one another !!

  41. Deanna S. September 16, 2014 at 4:07 pm

    So inspiring. My heart goes out to Janine but I am so happy that she was able to experience this and release herself…feeling at peace! Good for you girl! Sending much Aloha your way!!

  42. Craig Newton September 16, 2014 at 4:30 pm

    Janine/Matt
    Wow as I write this I still have the goose bumps on my arms. Thank you so much for this story and the absolutely breathtaking photos that accompany it.

    I feel as if I have been invited to a very private. sacred, moment in your life Janine I am humbled and feel very lucky to see what you have shared I am in awe of your heart and the love you hold for your fiance.

    Matt, you captured this very emotional experience beautifully thank you for your talent that you have shared with us.

    My favorite photo is the one where you are finally smiling Janine so beautiful and the light I can see back in your eyes and on your face.

    May you continue to heal and to take deeper breaths and see more light and have a lighter heart I also know with out a shadow of doubt your fiance John was there swimming with you and he has got to be absolutely so proud just how beautiful and poised his Janine was that day and continues to be.

  43. Karen September 16, 2014 at 4:34 pm

    This is soooo beautiful. She looks amazing.

  44. Bonnie September 16, 2014 at 4:57 pm

    What a sad but lovely story. Live on and remember the good times

  45. Edie September 16, 2014 at 5:22 pm

    I am in AWE of this woman Janine, and Love how she chose to memorialize her love and respect for her relationship she shared with her fiance’, Matt I Love the work you did with her, such beautiful, emotional and inspiring photos that tell such a lovely and deeply emotional story. I don’t even know Janine and she has me crying, I am so sorry for your loss doll, and I am positive that your fiance’ sees this and feels your love and is so very proud of you for being so beautiful, creative and strong. Thank you for sharing this with everyone,it’s breathtaking as well as heart wrenching, and not to forget inspiring. Edie

  46. Debra September 16, 2014 at 5:28 pm

    Your fiance was a very handsome man. Your photos are very beautiful and I hope they help in your grief process. Thank you for sharing them with us.

  47. Heather September 16, 2014 at 5:39 pm

    Oh my goodness, what remarkably beautiful images. She looks so peaceful and radiant, and I’m in absolute awe of her strength and desire to find closure. I wish amazing things for Janine, and for Del Sol, for helping her with this emotional journey.

  48. Lorna September 16, 2014 at 5:47 pm

    I had tears in my eyes by the time I read the whole story and cried when I saw the pictures. I could not phantom going through something this tragic. Janine you are a beacon of hope for many. Is not how you grief is how you love and learn to love from afar. I lost my Mom unexpectedly on Christmas Eve day, and I thought honestly I would die without her. But God showed me that His will be done and we cannot question it no matter what. He will send you someone to love you and treat you like a Princess again and you both will cherish the love that you and John had… Because true love always makes you a better person. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing your story and your grief. You are a beautiful bride and most of all a beautiful person for memorializing John and honoring his memory. God bless you. Lorna

  49. Anjanette Moore September 16, 2014 at 5:53 pm

    I think this was one of the most touching stories I have seen in a really long time. Kudos to Matt for helping Janine find the peace and closure she was looking for and needed. My heartfelt condolences and admiration to Janine for having the courage to look for a way to both celebrate that who was most important in her life and, to celebrate herself.

  50. denise anderson September 16, 2014 at 5:59 pm

    Janine your story reaches across all barriers of devoted love! I commend you in the manner in which you brought closure! Beautiful are the feet of those that bring good tidings! Matt may I say to you that God has one way to elevate you and that is through Him! Your gifts and talents has brought you before great men AND (LOL) women. Awesome work!

  51. Joy September 16, 2014 at 6:20 pm

    What a creative and marvelous way for Janine to honor her fiance and marriage. Life becomes so meaningful. I cried with you and will celebrate with you for your recovery and wholeness … in the LORD.

  52. Lisa September 16, 2014 at 6:39 pm

    Janine, what a beautiful story. I sit here and can feel every emotion of your loss. The pic of u laying on top of the water, makes me feel like, I just want to be alone and let me grieve, let me cry, and try to sort all this out. The underwater ones remind me of the overwhelming feeling of drowning in tears, emotion,and hopelessness, and like its all around and u cant break free from it. The one where ur hand is on your cheek, makes me think..ok its time to move on and get out of this slump…there is so much more life to live, and then end when u are smiling out of the water..means you are ready to take on the world and will remember the grief, what is was for, but will no longer let it consume you. I applaud you for these pictures and how you honor your fiance and yourself. I too feel consumed by grief, your pictures tell a story of the steps of grief, and actually give me hope that i can overcome someday. Thank you for sharing your story.

  53. Billie September 16, 2014 at 6:43 pm

    You are so beautiful and brave. What a wonderful tribute to your partner and yourself. Koudous to you.

  54. Tammy September 16, 2014 at 6:52 pm

    Janine, well done sweetie. Not a dry eye at my house right now. My heart goes out to you!

    The pictures and video are absolutely
    beautiful. I know you must be a very strong young lady, because not many people would have been able to do this. It is, and always will be a reflection of your love – True Love. Again, absolutely beautiful…
    May God bless you!

  55. Kat September 16, 2014 at 6:55 pm

    Your photos are beautiful, and I am glad to see someone follow her heart in what way feels best to deal with a loved one’s passing. I am very sorry you have lost your fiance, Janine. Big Hugs!

  56. Krizia Everett September 16, 2014 at 6:57 pm

    Reading your story and seeing the pictures brought tears to my eyes. You look so lovely and completely at peace with everything…. This is definitely a creative way to commemorate his death and what would have been a beautiful marriage. My condolences for your loss

  57. diane saraczewski September 16, 2014 at 7:04 pm

    these are the most beautiful pictures…tears started to run down my cheeks as it looks like she is saying goodbye…then the joy on her beautiful face took me by surprise… what a gift to us all…thank you

  58. MARIE September 16, 2014 at 7:08 pm

    My husband passed away Aug 8th after a long courageous battle with cancer. You have inspired me in my search for peace. This November 15th is our 28th wedding anniversary; November 21st he would have turned 70 years old. Perhaps rather than cry all day and stay heavily medicated, I will do something positive, as you have,to honor his memory and my unending love for the light of my life.

    • Janine September 18, 2014 at 1:51 pm

      Hi Marie!
      Your comment really touched me and I am so sorry to hear about your husband. I am so happy that you are going to honor him. Everyone grieves different and if you are going to do something you are going to feel amazing! I stand by my words.. Life is too short to let people bring you down. Thank you so much for sharing your comment gave me goosbumps reading your comment.

      xoxox – Janine

  59. Joyce September 16, 2014 at 7:13 pm

    Janine what a wonderful idea, that is so beautiful. I know your man is looking down with a smile.

  60. Lisa Smoltino September 16, 2014 at 7:25 pm

    Matt (and Sol): Absolute standing ovation. I do not know that there is anyone on this planet more talented than you-simply for the fact that not only are your photographs visual poetry, but your spirits as human beings just continuously blows me away. Every photo that you create is lyrical and emotional-the photo journalism catapults the viewer right to the heart of the story– as you so beautifully did here with this tale of the amazing and inspiring Janine. She could not have picked better people to tell her story and to cleanse her soul. BRAVO

  61. Andrea September 16, 2014 at 7:31 pm

    This is beautiful and thank you for sharing. I lost the love in my life over 2 years ago. To the day, I haven’t let go. Letting go is the hardest part. So brave of you to do this. You are beautiful.

  62. Susan September 16, 2014 at 7:35 pm

    Janine, you are brave & beautiful, not to mention inspiring!! Thank you for sharing your journey. Live well Love even more.
    Thank you and your photographer.
    My only complaint is there aren’t more photos!
    Susan

  63. Christine September 16, 2014 at 7:46 pm

    I am so touched with the janine’s courage despite the loss. The photos have captured the intangible qualities of love. Here’s a link i found in youtube that i was reminded of when i saw the photos. It’s the story of a writer who lost his fiance before the wedding. May this be an inspiration as well :

    youtu.be/tKjUoE2fack

  64. Cherie September 16, 2014 at 8:01 pm

    So very sorry for your loss. What a beautiful way to memorialize him. I, too, lost my fiancé in a car accident a few months before we were to be married. It’s been 36 years and I still mourn him. (My daughter was born on the 7th anniversary of his death – she came when she chose that date, not me.)

  65. Lori September 16, 2014 at 8:14 pm

    What beautiful pictures. I am sorry for your loss but you turned this into something more. Instead of feeling sorry for yourself you did something you will always remember. Your a wonderful person, who is thoughtful and full of life. I am sure your fiance is looking down at you and with the biggest smile ever.

    To you Matt, what wonderful pictures you took. You too are a sensitive soul.

  66. Gabriela Higa September 16, 2014 at 8:21 pm

    Hi, my name is Gabriela, I’m 26 and I live in Buenos Aires, Argentina. On May 2nd 2013, I lost my boyfriend. He was murdered. He was the love of my life , and I know I was his. We had so many dreams together, that I felt I died with him.
    A year and four months has passed since, and thanks to GOD, now I’m able to dream big and start over again. Although this, I still feel lonely, not by the fact that I’ve lost my partner, I feel lonely because I have no one to talk to that actually knows how it feels. Therapy helped me a lot, but its not the same. I’ve got friends with cancer , friends who lost their patente, friends who lost a baby, but I havent met anyone young that has lost a soulmate.
    I know our experiencies were different, but I’d really like to contact Janine. I really can imagine how she felt during your photo shoot, my boyfriend and I used to dance a lot together and nos every time I dance my heart off , I know he is somewhere smiling at me.
    Life is never going to be the same Janine, but I assure you, you can be happy again!!

  67. monica September 16, 2014 at 8:27 pm

    wow what an amazing story. I am sorry for y our loss. There are no words out there that can bring you comfort. My heart and prayers go out to you. I hope the wonderful work the Del Sol company did can guide you to your path of peace. I wish nothing but the best for you and your family.

    lots of love, light and peace your way.

    monica. :O)

  68. Napoleon September 16, 2014 at 8:31 pm

    The most Touching story I have come across in a long time. OMG Janine; you are such an inspiration not just to women but to us men as well. Am sure Johnny (RIP) from above is celebrating Your courage and the way you have faced the situation to let the past go and enjoy your freedom! May God Bless you and all those that contributed this inspirational story. Matt; thank you and your team for such an Amazing work! Love and Peace

  69. Bianca September 16, 2014 at 8:35 pm

    As the saying goes “pictures are worth a thousand words”.
    Dear Matt.
    Not only are your pictures worth a BILLION words. But warrant such embrace, courage and reason to cry without fear!!
    Learning to move on is so essential and not everyone knows how (myself included) too move on. I can so easily give advice and help a loved one but can’t take my advice to heal and move on. I’m definitely stuck. I know what Janine means about it being OK to be alone but NOT too alone. I’ve secluded myself for almost a year. Its such a horrible spot and so many nights just spent awake, alone, pacing the floors.
    If I wasn’t so petrified of water, I’d probably take a plunge.
    Thank you for sharing.

  70. Linda Sue September 16, 2014 at 8:45 pm

    Janine, you did such a beautiful, touching gesture to symbolize the bond you had with Johnny and I pray that you will find solace in the meaningful cleansing of all that is love and lost. God Bless You, My Dear.

  71. Ceci Viel September 16, 2014 at 8:57 pm

    The pictures are beautiful. RIP John and may God Bless you.

  72. kristie September 16, 2014 at 9:01 pm

    OMG…..THESE PICTURES ARE ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL! !!!!!

  73. Mona September 16, 2014 at 9:04 pm

    I am glad that she was able to find peace. Bless you for helping her and may Janine find absolute happiness in the future.

  74. Titania September 16, 2014 at 9:16 pm

    Wonderful, magical, powerful photography. And such an amazing, brave thing she did with so much pain. Such a tribute to him and to the relationship. If she has this much bravery to face it like this and make the best of it, I can only see great things for her in life.

  75. Estie Chapman September 16, 2014 at 9:17 pm

    Hi, Janine.
    My name is Estie and I just wanted to say congratulations for your engagement, and that I am sorry for your loss. I have personally not gone through what you are feeling, but I watched your video and was blown away by the depth of your feelings for your fiancé. I hope you find everything you are looking for and can eventually find a good man, maybe not one like your John, and can be happy for the rest of your life. I wish you the best of luck and I pray everything works out in your favor!
    God Bless you and your strength!!

  76. Marie.eve September 16, 2014 at 9:20 pm

    Cant speak, just breathe as i look, listen and read…beautifull and peacefull moments for a so sad story…thanks for your generosity Matt and a big hug for this wonderfull woman, she’s brave! I hope that you’re now on the way to heal, long live dear Janine.

    xx Marie from Canada

  77. David September 16, 2014 at 9:35 pm

    Beautiful pictures from a beautiful lady! My late wife died after 10 years of marriage and I feel your pain. You will find great love again as i did, and we all do… Just open your mind and your heart and he will be there.

  78. Rosemary York September 16, 2014 at 9:42 pm

    I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I can’t imagine losing my husband before our wedding day. I loved your photos, and I as well was crying… you see for me, my wedding day like many may say was over in three blink of an eye. I really wish the day had lasted longer, but your photos… they are stunning. It’s like you’re suspended in time, everything stops and it’s just you…. and your dress… it’s just beautiful, surreal, stunning and powerful. You have helped me to realize how blessed I was too have a wedding day, even if it did fly by. I wish you a happy rebirth…(((hugs)))

  79. debbie September 16, 2014 at 9:43 pm

    Absolutely beautiful!!

  80. Ernestine September 16, 2014 at 9:50 pm

    Beautiful and angelic in restful waters!

  81. Lee Mon September 16, 2014 at 10:12 pm

    We respect in her love with her action.
    Janine. The river has no return.
    Matt, thanks for sharing this pictures.
    You can present Janine in under water PERFECT!
    She looks very beautiful and strong mind.

    Love always with her.

    RIP
    Lee mon

  82. Renee September 16, 2014 at 10:12 pm

    Janine,

    You are an indelible force. What you have done to memorialize the tragic loss of your fiancé is soulful and brave! These pictures are beautiful. I wish you the best of luck and am truly sorry for your loss.

  83. Mary Jane September 16, 2014 at 10:18 pm

    Beautiful

  84. Mona Ramos September 16, 2014 at 11:06 pm

    I am so lucky to come across this awesome story. I have nothing but tears in my eyes. I have such mixed emotions from sad to relief and happiness for you. This is such a unique way to free yourself and move to the next chapter of your life. The photographer was able to capture every bit of your emotions and transfer it to an art. Its just so priceless…water cleanses everything. Janine…gurl, you rock!

  85. Jeannie September 16, 2014 at 11:08 pm

    Simply beautiful!

  86. Alexa September 16, 2014 at 11:21 pm

    What a beautiful story, Janine. I’m saddened for your loss and uplifted by your strength. What a beautiful way to honor your fiance. I hope you find peace soon. Thank you for sharing your experience with all of us.

  87. Bridget September 17, 2014 at 12:03 am

    Amazing, absolutely amazing! Every bit of it. Photography is beautiful! Story is sad and sweet at the same time. I bawled my eyes out! Thank you so much for sharing your story. It’s so touching. Love what you was able to put together here for Janine! So glad you was able to find your closure. What a beautiful way to do it!

  88. Steven September 17, 2014 at 12:25 am

    “Where O death is your victory, Where O death is your sting!”, Janine, what a creative way to rise above us all. Good on you!

    • Evelyn September 17, 2014 at 3:59 am

      I lost my fian’ce tragically and was to be wed one week prior. It will soon be eight years since time of death. However, I found it difficult to sleep at 4:00 a.m and stumbled across this lovely story that conforted me at a time still in distress! It brought back beautiful memories out from sadness. Am touched nothing more “or” less to speak of accept. Thank You!

  89. Tina September 17, 2014 at 12:30 am

    Amazing, breath taking, priceless! I am in tears. and in awe of such a beautiful tribute to her would be husband. May God bless you and give you peace. Love will find you, again!!!

  90. Laura September 17, 2014 at 12:32 am

    Hope and Healing to Janine!

    Matt, Your photos of Janine are breathtakingly beautiful.

  91. Sheryl September 17, 2014 at 12:45 am

    Absolutely phenomenal. Pure emotion.

  92. David September 17, 2014 at 1:04 am

    Amazing! Loss can be so over whelming and lead into such depression and emptyness. This is truly a spin on a positive alternative. WOW!

    God Bless you!

  93. tim September 17, 2014 at 1:06 am

    So sorry for your loss. …your strength is a lesson to us all…

  94. Chinh Nguyen September 17, 2014 at 1:16 am

    Beautiful! not only the pictures shot in a wonderful -underwater-views, but also, a spirit of passed away groom seemed surround the bride. I admire your project. You completed a hard but awesome job.
    Sincerely,
    C.

  95. Adeyinka September 17, 2014 at 1:47 am

    first of all, it takes lot of courage for someone to do a photo shoots and video of a departed loved one..i must commend janine foe that, i do not know her but when i stumbled on this it opened up another chapter in my life and am like to love someone is the best feeling ever and to lose someone you love is maddness but janine did great by letting the steam out and give some people hope and to find love again, very touching and i wish her the very best in Life.

    And to matt, you and your crew are simply magnificent very create and pleasing to see. keep it up am glad to know you from today onwards.

  96. Jean September 17, 2014 at 2:07 am

    Simply Beautiful!

  97. Minerva September 17, 2014 at 2:07 am

    You guys are so amazing! You just don’t know how much emotions you have given to us. Just looking at these wonderful pictures it make everyone burst into tears. Thank you sharing the message of hope and healing.

  98. Giomarie September 17, 2014 at 2:14 am

    Beautiful. Inspiring. Amazing.

  99. marian otto September 17, 2014 at 2:40 am

    omg..beautiful…I saw her pain and felt the release….so powerful and moving…..embrace and open the door to life once more Janine….may love and happiness be yours once more.

  100. cezar tionko September 17, 2014 at 2:51 am

    i love all the pictures ! indeed it is a form of cleansing and letting go….anyway letting go does not mean forgetting but realizing that you have so much life a head of you……

  101. Asiimwe September 17, 2014 at 2:54 am

    I am all tears, but i realize that Janine is so strong both in love and life! John in heaven must be saying this was the right girl! Going for the most beautiful moments when anyone else would be wrapped in a grief blanket! Thank you for sharing this moving story. I am sure it will help many people who believe their world has ended…
    RIP John

  102. Dolores Soares September 17, 2014 at 2:55 am

    After seeing these beautiful pictures. Janine you have inspired me.You are an amazing person. We have also had a tragedy in our life. We lost our only child in a road accident..I still cannot understand God’s ways. He gives all of us challenges here on earth and wants to see how we can carry on in life…It is difficult each day.
    Thanks for sharing your story. God Bless
    Dolores
    from Pakistan

  103. Marthese September 17, 2014 at 3:19 am

    What a beautiful person you are Janine, inside and out. And what a gorgeous tribute to you fiance, may he RIP. Even not knowing either you or him, I am sure he approved this beautiful gesture you made. May God bless you always and may you live a happy life full of the love that shines out so abundantly from you. And a huge well done to the photographer, these photos show all the emotion that was there.

  104. Malena Mandel September 17, 2014 at 3:25 am

    Beautiful and inspirational! thanks for sharing your story. I understand and can relate to your loss. I lost my fiance and my mother on 2009. My best wishes for Jeanine.

    Matt, your work is great!!!

    • Stephen .I. Okechukwu September 17, 2014 at 3:47 am

      Hi Malena Mandel
      Your experience in love is just like of Janine, but i can only say take the good ones are infront. if possible you can get intouch with me let conversate together and see what is will bring. i hope it can be good for us. i am single yet seeking for good hearted one. you can reach me direct in my email; stephen.igbo10(a)yahoo(dot)com Yu can arrange it and reach me direct ok.

  105. Muneeba Ahmad September 17, 2014 at 3:31 am

    what beautiful story . She is a strong , courageous and beautiful young lady inside out. Hatts off to the Photographer too. I am simply touched by this story. Loosing the loved one’s is always hard.
    Much love,
    Muneeba

  106. Stephen .I. Okechukwu September 17, 2014 at 3:38 am

    Hi Janine, You are really a such to kind looking for because of your kind loving heart, i was very much touched when i watched out your pictures wearing your weddng gown just for the feeling of the passed fiance. Truely i need such like you in my life, only that the distance between us are many. I am from Africa and living here in Africa but will like to be sharing communication with you if possibly you can be incontact with me. I am single yet. but i wouldn’t mind…
    my cel; +2267813096 i can be reached with his N°. thankx.

  107. Lisa E. Gray September 17, 2014 at 3:50 am

    What a great idea! Wonderful photos! Good luck to you in life, Janine!

  108. Scherida September 17, 2014 at 4:02 am

    Hi its very beautiful photo reportage can you send me more of these under water photo’s just keep it up with fantasy brides!
    Greetings,
    Scherida

  109. AKUJOBI DAVID September 17, 2014 at 4:23 am

    I am simply toucthed by this story. But LOVLY

  110. Emily Burke September 17, 2014 at 5:28 am

    Very beautiful story! In one of the pictures she looks like an Angel under water. That is just simply AWESOME!

  111. Marcus Tenti September 17, 2014 at 5:28 am

    Marvelous!
    Powerful lady that dares to show that grief can be turned into beauty and paving a new path in life.
    I am a hard personality and it takes a lot before ever get a tear in my eyes.
    This touchy project did it!

    All the best for Janine.
    Marcus

    (Matt, your name noted down to remember if ever need a special shoot.)

  112. marga September 17, 2014 at 5:51 am

    tears are flowing. tears for the loss of what couldve been. tears for the smiles when i saw some of the photos. these photos moved me, gave me strength and peace. my father left in october 2013 and i spend at least part of every day crying at my loss. but seeing these pictures i feel strength. this was excellent. thank you so much, janine, for coming up with this idea. thank you del sol for your creavity. peace be with you.

  113. Christine September 17, 2014 at 5:54 am

    You have really encouraged me I lost my cousin through a road accident last month, he was to wed on 20th September this month I will share your story with fiancee thanks you look beautiful

  114. Matchie September 17, 2014 at 6:11 am

    I watched the video and it was heartbreaking and the photos are remarkable. The story really touches those who have experience this kind of situation. Thank you Janine for sharing your strong heart. I wish you all the best for your future.

  115. obi-talk September 17, 2014 at 6:20 am

    What a story and you have such a great heart I believe there will always be love in your heart because you are such a great woman.

  116. Mary September 17, 2014 at 6:31 am

    This is phenomenal. She truly is strong, courageous and her story is inspirational. I wish her well in her life

  117. Lorrane September 17, 2014 at 6:40 am

    They say a picture says 1000 words and tell a story and I have to say as I am looking at them and saw the video I was crying my eyes out. Thank you so much for sharing and opening up to totally strangers. You are an amazing woman and I know John is smiling down on you. God Bless you

  118. Gina September 17, 2014 at 6:49 am

    I can’t stop crying… My heart breaks for what could have been. But I see hope for a happy future because of your the strength and beauty of your character. Sending Aloha.

  119. Laura September 17, 2014 at 7:26 am

    Absolutely beautiful pictures. I have to say the idea of doing this to find closure was just Amazing. Every pictures made me feel a sense of reconnection with life and yet made me feel that sad part of her trying to reach to the unknown . Just how I felt. I hope she feels better now. Beautiful work . Great pictures.

  120. Tina September 17, 2014 at 7:46 am

    I am so glad you are healing Janine! I know it gives women like me hope that there is less pain down the road! It has only been 4 months since my sweet Black Wolf died… At times, I can’t imagine there is peace after this type of grief.

  121. Peaches Cummeh September 17, 2014 at 7:53 am

    I am so touched by your story. I have similar story but mine, we got married and had children. He was to graduate from the Law school this year 2014. We have six children. last two are 1 and 4yrs. God is our guide and will definitely protect and provide for us. i salute you and will take your advice. I thought all was gone.

  122. Linda September 17, 2014 at 8:09 am

    What a beautiful & strong young woman. How proud her young man would be of her. What awesome pics were done to help her move on and I know he was there with her. Bless you both and may she find peace in time.

  123. ELIZABETH September 17, 2014 at 8:24 am

    La esperanza de la resurrección puede consolarnos como lo hizo en el caso del piadoso Job, quien exclamó: “¡Oh que en el Seol me ocultaras, Jehová, que me mantuvieras secreto hasta que tu cólera se volviera atrás, que me fijaras un límite de tiempo y te acordaras de mí! Si un hombre físicamente capacitado muere, ¿puede volver a vivir? Todos los días de mi trabajo obligatorio esperaré, hasta que llegue mi relevo. Tú llamarás, y yo mismo te responderé. Por la obra de tus manos sentirás anhelo”. (Job 14:13-15.) Por lo general uno no se entristece profundamente cuando un amigo querido se va de viaje, pues esperamos verlo de nuevo. El profundo dolor que causa la pérdida de una persona amada puede aliviarse hasta cierto grado si vemos de manera semejante la muerte de una persona fiel. Si tenía la esperanza de vivir en la Tierra, será despertado del sueño de la muerte aquí en la Tierra bajo el Reinado de Mil Años de Cristo. (Juan 5:28, 29; Revelación 20:11-13.21:1-5) Y si nosotros tenemos la esperanza de vivir para siempre en la Tierra, pudiéramos estar aquí para dar la bienvenida al ser querido que habrá sido resucitado.algo que te va ayudar como a mi es la oración que le hagas a jehova como el es el dios de todo consuelo y sabe por lo que pasamos nos entiende, puedes leer 2 pedro 3:13, salmos 37:10,11,29 isaias 65:17. encontraras mas información en JW.ORG enseñanzas biblicas- preguntas sobre la biblia- la vida y la muerte. como otros temas de importancia para la familias y padres y matrimonios..

  124. Kathy Villareal September 17, 2014 at 8:26 am

    What a beautiful story of love,loss and Healing. May God’s blessings be granted to You. And with He’s help you will find Love again.

  125. Melissa Frye September 17, 2014 at 8:35 am

    Simply lovely. Beautiful and heartbreaking.

  126. Curt (st. louis) September 17, 2014 at 8:37 am

    Even though I have experienced the death of some very close to me, I still can’t say I know what you are going through: I think everybody is affected uniquely when something like that happens.

    Though time rolls on and life steers back to normal, powerful images of someone lost that you fully love are invoked at the strangest of times. Finding a route to experiencing wonderful memories, positive emotions and even a smile as opposed to sadness and tears is not only more healthy emotionally for you but honors and keeps alive both that person and the good he brought your life.

    I hope that your fiancé will forever be a positive support for you throughout your life as he was when you physically joined hands in life and mentally joined spirits in a path you created for the both of you through your emotionally positive photo shoot.

  127. John September 17, 2014 at 8:37 am

    It’s nice you found a way to “help” you move forward, and feel good about it. I guess everyone finds different ways of grieving and carrying on with their lives. I hope you found enough time to heal “within” first and foremost, so that you can refocus your life outwardly, looking forward to each day and the future of what it may bring.

  128. Veronica September 17, 2014 at 8:42 am

    my prayers are with you at this difficult time. may God watch over you and protect you.

  129. Dali Williams September 17, 2014 at 8:49 am

    Absolutely beautiful.

  130. Onigiri September 17, 2014 at 9:14 am

    I never had a wedding. But for some people who brag about how much money they spent on it consider this woman. She lost her love of her life and she did a tribute for him, hiring a photographer and do underwater shots to honor his memory. It’s a pretty good deed. A friend of mine said, if a tragedy struck in your life, there’s always something positive coming afterwards.

  131. J.S. September 17, 2014 at 9:16 am

    You captured his presence with her that day, simply Beautiful, Angelic and Amazing. Much success to you Matt, and love and blessings to you Janine.

  132. TRACY September 17, 2014 at 9:36 am

    So stunningly beautiful, the most touching photos I think I’ve ever seen. You are both brilliant for doing a layout this way:)

  133. Gerald Lee Horne September 17, 2014 at 10:03 am

    I know not the motive in truth, however, it is inspirational and a seemingly wonderful way to honor him. I am a HARD CRITIC, so when I say something, it is something to be said.

  134. laurie September 17, 2014 at 10:44 am

    simply beautiful

  135. Marie September 17, 2014 at 10:46 am

    So sorry for your lost; I pray that God will bless you to find love again, for He loves you.

  136. Karen G September 17, 2014 at 10:56 am

    WOW, so beautiful. Love is an amazing and the love that you have for your fiance is shown in the pictures. May God bless you always Janine. The photography is amazing.

  137. Joanna September 17, 2014 at 11:25 am

    This work of art helps all those who have suffered loss; to know one isn’t alone and that there is still beauty in memory.

  138. Bleekey September 17, 2014 at 11:31 am

    beautiful. May you have the strength to move forward with your life, while always remembering that very special someone. May he rest in peace.

  139. Angelica September 17, 2014 at 11:34 am

    Very touching and very beautiful. Thank you for sharing your moment.

  140. Deborah Miller September 17, 2014 at 11:56 am

    Matt..
    These are beautiful photos to go with Janine’s loss. Janine, you are a beautiful woman and a beautiful bride. The love you experienced made you a better person and made you stronger. I’m sure that your story helped others. My admirations for not closing yourself off from the world. My prayers for you, Johnny and your families. I wish you peace and serenity and all of Life’s best as you journey on. Thank you for sharing!!!
    p.s. Matt, as a photographer, as well…I love the lighting! :)

  141. Wendy Kuhns September 17, 2014 at 11:59 am

    I’m speechless and so happy for Janine and John. What a beautiful story.

  142. Sadek Boumahchad September 17, 2014 at 12:05 pm

    Beautiful, deep, real and inspiring. My Allah Shower you with His Blessings Now and then, here and beyond…

  143. Rebecca B September 17, 2014 at 12:15 pm

    Beautiful photos!!! This is such a touching story that is a great inspiration to many and reminder of how beautiful life is and how something like this can help to hold on to the memories of our loved ones.

  144. Barbara September 17, 2014 at 12:30 pm

    This woman is awesome. I love the way she memorialized “their special day.” The photography is absolutely wonderful. I feel her grief and my best is sent to her. I will remember these photographs.

  145. Chantelle G. September 17, 2014 at 12:33 pm

    God Bless you all!

  146. Lisa September 17, 2014 at 12:45 pm

    It was an honor to be allowed to share in Janine’s story. It is an extremely heartbreaking event that took place. I cried while watching the video and my heart broke for you. But I also learned that you are a very strong and courageous woman. Your tribute to John was beautiful and touching. I know that he was watching from above with love and admiration. You have used what you love to help you take a step in moving past the sadness to the future. My wish for you is that God’s Blessings shine on you everyday and that you feel nothing but love all around you. I know that choosing to move on, does not mean you will never feel sad, and in those moments just know that it is okay to cry, even if no one else understands. Sending you big hugs and love.

    To Del Sol Photography, I just want to say what an amazing job you have done helping Janine capture what she was wanting to do. Outstanding first class work. I thank you from the bottom of my heart for helping this young lady accomplish her goal. Thank you.

    Much love to you all & God Bless,

    Lisa

  147. RosyMario September 17, 2014 at 12:55 pm

    Very Beautiful. It is always hard and sad to forget someone you so deeply love, Thank you for sharing this great story with so many.

  148. Mariam Bazzi September 17, 2014 at 1:21 pm

    First and foremost, my condolences to Janine and your loved ones’ and John’s family. Your story is truly touching and inspiring to many out there feeling your kind of loss.

    In short summary, my little girl Alexandrea went to heaven very suddenly and tragically 3 years ago. She was 11. It’s been very very difficult as she was my only child. Time has shifted thoughts, pain, and reflection; though the pain does lie within.

    I would like to honor you and thank you for your story that you have shared because I am for certain that it was very difficult.

    What a beuatiful and inspiring way to honor John in heaven and to take your grief and make it into something else…. something positive.

    Thank you as you have inspired me from the depth of my being.

    God bless you.

  149. Tonya Armstrong September 17, 2014 at 1:29 pm

    Simply Beautiful!

  150. Suzanne September 17, 2014 at 2:30 pm

    Such a beautiful story and amazing love. My prayers go out to Janine in hopes that she found her peace and is able to go forward and find love again in time.

  151. Kimberley Windisch September 17, 2014 at 2:37 pm

    Thank you for sharing this beautiful story and tribute. You can see and feel her transformation and healing. I have tears of joy and sorrow for this remarkable woman. And, what an amazing photographer to be able to capture such emotion and beauty in these conditions. Bless her on her journey.

  152. Cira September 17, 2014 at 2:47 pm

    Dear Janine:
    Your catharsis became art.
    You have created for yourself and all who have met you now, an everlasting memory engraved artistically in this photos captured by Matt your photographer. Art is ageless and so are love stories.
    God bless you and guide you, Cira

  153. Michele D. September 17, 2014 at 2:58 pm

    What a powerful story. Thank you for sharing this with the world. Matt – you truly captured some amazing photos and I am sure that you helped Janine out in more ways than we can all imagine. Janine seems like a very strong woman and an inspiration and role model to so many others who may be in this situation. Bless you all for letting us get a small glimpse into her healing process!

  154. LeAnn Blankensopp September 17, 2014 at 3:42 pm

    Beautiful photo’s and beautiful story. The picture of her underwater with little lite reflecting made that picture angelic. I was in tears looking at the pictures and reading the story. She is a strong woman and the pictures are breathtaking…

  155. Christy September 17, 2014 at 4:38 pm

    What an amazing, heartbreaking, healing story! My heart goes out to you Janine. Thank you for sharing your intensely emotional journey. Beautifully done pictures Del Sol!
    May God be with you Janine.

  156. Kim September 17, 2014 at 5:07 pm

    Thank you for sharing your story! You ARE beautiful….inside and out.

  157. Monic September 17, 2014 at 8:09 pm

    sooooo happy for you that you had the strength to get it done! Your story is very touching but you are such a strong lady! Proud of you, I don’t know you but… wow! Amazing story…
    Take the time to heal take care of yourself and something great is waiting for you and you have an amazing husband up there with the angels watching over you!!!! Congrats on your photos and video… BEAUTIFUL but beautiful person you are…

  158. Hariharan September 18, 2014 at 7:55 am

    Absolutely awesome….great concept and another way to show that a picture speaks a thousand words. Kudos to the team to make an emotional connect with the person and help her relive her intimate moments and change her life all together

  159. Monica September 18, 2014 at 3:04 pm

    Janine.

    So sorry for your loss, and blessings on the opportunities you have chosen to give yourself, keeping the memory of your loved one with such a great form of art.

    I love the idea. I love the passion on which you decided to do this project, not as a project, but as way to feel Johnny with you one more time.
    I love your dress, and I hope to find one similar to yours when I get married (no plans yet).
    If you choose to sell it sometime, let us know :)

    Live your life with the same passion!!!

    Best Wishes!!

  160. Moet September 18, 2014 at 3:29 pm

    I don’t know who you are..
    Thank you for sharing this beautiful story. You could not have done this any better…Janine go with God’s Blessings and continue to enjoy your life.

    God Bless you !

    P.S. The Photos are beautiful!!!!

  161. Carol Pal September 19, 2014 at 9:41 am

    Hi….
    Ummm…. well…. when I came across this on FB I thought, “Hmmmm. Odd and I think a bit sad.” Then I looked at the pictures. The transformation from the first picture of quiet heartache to the last picture of peacefulness was beautiful. Janine, you are brilliant for understanding what your heart and spirit needed and brave enough to pursue that. I think that sometimes when people are afraid to face what could be tough emotions they get stuck in them. You are an inspiration, thank you for sharing this with the world. A great choice in your photographer. Matt treated you with dignity and beauty, the pictures are gorgeous. I wish the best for you Janine.
    Carol Pal

  162. Julia (austria) September 20, 2014 at 3:52 pm

    janine, this is amazing. YOU are amazing! when i read your story and watched the video i cried but at the same time i could see your peace and relief. i wish you all the best for your life, may you have many hours filled with joy, peace and happiness!
    you are an amazing, very strong and very beautiful woman!
    xx julia

  163. Patti September 24, 2014 at 2:00 pm

    Thank you for sharing with the world. God Bless You.

  164. Laura Sweet September 24, 2014 at 6:21 pm

    My heart goes out to Janine. I admire her strength as much as I admire Matt’s photos. Thank you both for sharing.

  165. Isabel September 29, 2014 at 7:02 am

    The courage and strength of one woman….don’t know if I would ever be that strong…Janine you ROCK GIRL

  166. Barney October 5, 2014 at 7:43 am

    Beautiful photos and story. What an amazing way to honor/remember a loved one. Janine . . . you left me speechless, crying, laughing, speechless, crying, laughing, and . . . You are a Beautiful Princess and the photos only prove that! The photos . . . WOW! You look so cleansed, free, and happy! Awesome! To Matt . . . Brilliant!!! I don’t think I need to say more!

    • Kelly October 6, 2014 at 10:37 am

      Thanks Barney, appreciate your kind words and you taking the time to share your comments. All the best! – Kelly

  167. beth nye November 9, 2014 at 12:00 am

    I, too, lost my fiance tragically 17 days before our wedding. We had dated for 7 yrs, was engaged to get married & the money for that wedding became so stressful that we split. A day never went by that i wished & prayed we’d get together again & 3 yrs later we found ourselves back together & decided we would get married bc we couldn’t live w/o each other. I spent a yr planning our 2nd wedding when he kissed me goodbye one day-went out on his harley & was hit & killed instantly. I had everything paid for & ready to go. My alterations were done on my dress & after he died they kept calling for me to come get it. However, i just couldn’t do it. I still tried to go on what was supposed to be our honeymoon. Only the pain was so unbearable my fiance’s mom encouraged me to come back home, i just couldn’t be by myself at that time. Yet, now that i saw this story i sit here thinking what a perfect idea-why couldn’t i have thought of that. I know this girl’s pain. Only it’s been 9 yrs since i lost him & i still cant move on in my life w/o him.

    • Kelly November 10, 2014 at 10:03 am

      Dear Beth,
      I am so sorry to read about your pain, I do hope you find some hope from Janine’s story and the inner strength to move forward. We wish you all the best and send big hugs to you.

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